2008年8月27日星期三

睡前杂想

一、

期待的,今天终于到来
这到底是怎么样的心情呢?
回首一年的光景
留下的只有你们年轻活力

期盼的,明天继续来临
这又是怎么样的心情呢?
遥望前方的风景
剩下的,却又有你们的欢乐笑语

心里,此时
充满深深的祝福
没有道别
只有‘下次再见’的暂时别离

人生的旅程
请继续昂首前行
如果,我是说如果
将来是幸苦的
莫忘记这里
还有我们的祝福

你们终于‘毕业’了!
珍重!



二、

今天收到早来的教师节礼物,是我的级任班的小帅哥提早送的。他说,每年都来不及将礼物分完,所以提早送。我还没有拆开礼物,因为单单包装就很用心,也很漂亮,加上他祝福的话语就写在包装纸上,所以我是有点不舍得拆开。Than Kyou Carefree boy. May you receive best of what life can possibly offer.

骊歌

今天是学警团中四学长退伍兼交棒的大日子。

每每到了‘一代新人换旧人’的季节,总会不禁回头望一望过去留下的点点滴滴,这些点点滴滴,却又是说不尽。

走过的成长路上,必须是在有血有汗的幸苦中才会站稳每一个脚步。这是一个代价,一个有人必须被臭骂下才能换来的成长。

今天,骊歌奏起,未来是怎么样的一条路,没人知晓,可是走过的岁月,必定能让这些壮志少年以丰满、健硕的羽翼,在无垠的未来天空翱翔。

依旧的,是老去的,却继续地在孕育一代一代的老叟。

不知道,老叟是否在翘首盼望着倦鸟归巢?

2008年8月22日星期五

Fridays in the past 30 years.

When I was young, Fridays used to be the days when I would suffer the horrible bus rides from Boon Lay to Bt Timah, 'chap-ko' (10 mile) to visit my granny. Fridays were spent listening to her stories and eventaully the lullaby she would croon in some forgotten melody

When I was in Primary one, Fridays were spent in the secondary school field of Jurong School, catching grasshoppers and ladybirds and chasing after the ice-cream man who sells coconut flavor icecream.

When I was in Secondary school, Fridays were wasted at Bt. Timah Plaza eating chicken noodles or ogling at girls. Occasionally I would spend it in school, painting banners or just simply waited for nightfall afterwhich we would go for ice-kacang ko-song @ Blk 26.

When I was in JC, Fridays were spent at either council room or at JEC, wasting our youth away with the same-old-gang.

When I was in NS, Fridays were spent in camps, eagerly waiting for book-outs. Some times, kena confinement had to stay in camp and watch the stray dogs mate or the cats catching cockroaches.

In freshie days, Fridays were spent in Central Library mugging. (Ok. I tried.)

In honours year, Fridays were spent either in PGP pantry feasting or honours room rushing the thesis.

In NIE days, Fridays were exhausted in Md. Sultan's Madam with some Hall 5 people.

In teaching days, on Fridays, I will have the company of the night to walk me home in my tired, drained physique.

2008年8月21日星期四

a non-scary ghost story

This is a ghostly. (Blah...)

Was unable to sleep last night. I thought it was due to the 14-hour sound sleep the night before. So, I did a bit of prayer and I fell asleep shortly.

Guess what, I was dreaming of me wide awake trying to fall asleep.

NB! Wonder who was playing a nasty prank on me!

P/S: My first fear-anger in this 7th Lunar Month.

老妈的唠叨

很多青少年都经历过被父母唠叨的日子。

这是因为沟通出现问题呢,还是有其他的理由。无论如何,我没有一个绝对的答案。

可是,我必须提醒的是,在我会顶嘴的时候,也是成长的叛逆期。不是我不知道顶嘴是不对的,只不过是不知觉中‘脱口而出’的自然反应。

直到有一年,老妈突然间生病了,必须由救护车紧急送往医院后,才发现原来妈妈的身体在不知觉中已经‘老’了。那是我念大学的时候。突然接到‘pager’ 通知老妈子送往医院途中,于是从校园的一角翻山越岭到另一角的国大医院探望她。当时,忙着学校内的种种活动,我发现我忽略了老妈子。我还很清楚记得老妈当时的第一句话是:不用上学啊?很空闲么?当时,我发现老妈的确有一点陌生。她什么时候开始少了当年‘唠叨’我的力气。依稀记得过去我们总是斗看谁讲话大声,因为我们都认为‘大声’,就会赢。当时,我对老妈的不屑的语气还是有一点反感,可是顿时间,我觉得自己真的忽略了老妈了。

曾几何时,我老妈的孩子从过去一万个‘为什么’地烦她,到后来突然间,孩子的心都向外,为朋友、为学校、为女朋友等两肋插刀而把她孤零零的‘遗弃’在家里。是的,真的是突然间的事。不出几个月,孩子都‘飞’出去似的,让老妈有一种自己老了,管不住孩子了的危机意识。当时,她的语气是重的,因为她害怕我会被更具影响力的朋友的影响而学坏。当时,她更是以铿锵的口吻,掩饰她渐渐老去的身躯。

当然,老妈很快就康复出院了。后来,她还两次住院,但后来都有惊无险。日子依旧是绕着学校、朋友等打转。可是,我也学会了在适当的时候给予她肯定,告诉她,你儿子我长大了。虽然现在我没有太多时间陪家中二老,可是我相信他们的出发点还是为了两个孩子。只要我们有交代,有成绩,调皮一点点,胡扯一些些,他们还是会接受的。当然,偶尔也要让他们有‘长辈’的感觉,那些不是很紧要的,都任由他们去决定。最重要的是让他们觉得还是有尽父母该尽的责任——偶尔应酬他们,给他们唠叨一下下。

回想起来,老妈已经很久没有唠叨我了。也许该是去刺激她一下的时候了。


失眠的2008年8月21日,凌晨2点整
于我的狗窝

Chinese friendship Dance - Lyrics

Thanks Haiqal for the reminder.

Here it goes

带着笑容你走向我
You walked towards me with a smile

做个邀请的动作
and gestured to me for a dance

我不知道应该说什么
I was speechless

只觉得双脚在发抖
My only awareness is that of my trembling legs

音乐悠扬任婆娑
The music was melodious and people are dancing to it merrily

我只觉得脸儿红透
I felt a burning sensation on my cheeks

随着不断加快的心跳
As my heart beat gets faster

踩着没有节奏的节奏
my steps go haywire

鼓起勇气我低下头
Mustering all the courage, I bow

却不敢对你说
But I still dare not tell you

曾经见过的女孩中
that among all the girls I've met

妳是最美的一个
You are the prettiest of all

*Chorus
要是能这样握着你的手
If I can hold you hands like this

从现在开始到最后一首
from now till the last song

如果不嫌我的舞步笨拙
and if you do not mind my clumsy dancesteps

你是最美的一个
(I will tell you eventually that) you are the prettiest girl I've ever met.

2008年8月18日星期一

从8月11日说起

Ok! Straight after NATCAMP, it was fire-fighting the emails spammed over the four days, as I nurse my inflammed Larynx (spelling?) Saturday was the Asia-Pacific Chinese Debate and I was busy almost the whole day also. Then ferociously marking the last few stacks of assignments. And I am now finally a freer man!


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Exactly a week ago at this hour, I was already lying under the cloudy night @ Nordin Council Ring. How time flies. The fun-filled National Camp seemed like just yesterday.


I can still remember very clearly that some fine day, Chew called to ask me to emcee for the Natcamp opening ceremony. I tried pushing. Then bo-bian, I requested to partner with my 老搭档, the same lady whom we hosted the opening of the campsite also. That was when I was still 20++, full of energy, can jump jump, shout shout, cheer cheer and ding-dong around.


This time round, WK and I agreed that as we moved into 30++, we need to work hard to look 20++ yet get the necessary rest like a 30++. So, we happily assume our roles as the emcee for the opening. I did not know that the GOH was our President, until I got hold of the script. It was dreadful!


Ok. I must really commend the Division I was put in-charged. With Andy as my 2IC, he did everything! I felt quite extra. Haha. Then then, my 4 fabulous, overly-enthu CIs. Serious, they sure can really play. The campers were also ... imba! Until, one HQ staff officer came running and informed me that my Div campers are going mad! But well, it's ok! Natcamp should be this way! Let the hair loose and .. PLAY!


Seriously, I do miss everyone quite a fair bit. Their youthfulness makes me feel younger. Anyhow, "ALPHA ROCKS!!!"


TO MY HORROR, I do not have a group photo of my ALPHA!


Ok. I go sleep... My nose is running like crazy! Update again.

2008年8月15日星期五

National Camp 2008

Click on the title for the link to the Flickr.com -- Dorje Ong for pictures of National Camp 2008.

2008年8月11日星期一

手机简讯故事二则

I like these two stories. these are really Ss who created them.


简讯故事一
某位同事发送:

从前有一个尼姑和一个屠夫是好朋友。尼姑每天早上要起来念经,而屠夫天天要起来杀猪。为了不耽误他们早上的工作,于是他们约定互相叫对方起床。
多年以后……
尼姑和屠夫相继逝世了。屠夫上了天堂,而尼姑却下地狱了!
Why?
因为屠夫天天做善事,叫尼姑起来念经。而尼姑天天叫屠夫起来杀生!
这个故事告诉我们什么?

不要kay-poh!



简讯故事二
今早往乌敏岛途中,死党发送:

一个男精神病的自白:

几年前,我跟一个寡妇结了婚。,她有一个已经成年的女儿,后来我的父亲跟我妻子的女儿结了婚,我的女儿就成了我继母,我父亲就成我女婿。两年后,我妻子为我生了个儿子,他是我继母的同母异父的弟弟,我儿子叫我爸爸,同时我也得交我儿子舅舅。我的父亲生了一个儿子,他是我的弟弟,但他又必须叫我外公。同时我是我的妻子丈夫,我妻子即是我继母的母亲,也是我的外婆,所以我是我自己的外公……
于是我疯了。


说实在的,简讯创作真的很有意思。可惜近几年来有趣的简讯都没有收集起来,否则应该会是一堆很有意思的研究资料。

2008年8月10日星期日

与教书邂逅

一个在其他政府部门工作的友人听说教书真的很有满足感,于是MSN我,问个究竟。

这个问题,我真的不会回答。在面对许许多多的行政工作的时候,再加上世俗间的尔虞我诈,真的是有想要‘放弃’的念头。之后,机械式的运作方式不禁让我不寒而栗。有时候,真的会在思考是否就要如此继续下去,直到终老。当时,这份工作已经无法给我任何的满足,不仅如此,我还发现自己在退步,于是就毅然辞去教书的工作。

我问他,你认为老师只是教书吗?
他回答:老师不教书,那当什么老师?

也许是在很多时候,一忙起来,人就会忘记自己应该做的。可是,在现实世界里,如果只能教书,不做其他的,那将会导致这位老师面对被‘裁退’的厄运。理由:没有为机构带来‘增值’。这也是这个世界扭曲的信仰。在一切只讲究效率、成绩、功利的社会里,人,变成一个即可怕又可怜的生命。可怕,因为为了生存而自相残杀;可怜,因为最后的大输家则是自己。很讽刺的,好的老师,都一个个离开教育界,投入其他的行业里。可是,这些为学生、为教育,最后却被制度淘汰的教职员投身私人机构的自相残杀之中,最后也变得麻木不仁,真是可悲。

蓦然回首,我才终于明白为什么当年激发我踏上教学道路的老师在知道我也投身教育工作时的那个惊讶的感叹。那是老师爱护她的学生,而发出的最本能的叹息。

这是一份好的职业,可是如何在这个圈子里生活,需要无上的智慧。

老师不教书,老师干嘛?老师应该还是教书。
凭什么?凭自己的良心。
能有满足感吗?心态的自我调整吧。

2008年8月8日星期五

2nd NDP in School

This is the second NDP in this school. I thought it was quite a success.
Synchronised marching, no major hiccups and I must say that somewhat the boys are really fantastic when they are on their own. At least, they tried to avoid the do-nots. The PC and the emcees alike.

The sec 4s were at the CCA appreciation tea. Couldn't join coz I was handling some BSC stuff. Ended up 白忙一场。

Received the confirmation letter from the school yesterday. How time flies. One year of probation is over and I am still happy.

Looking back, if I am still in the 'Best Is Yet To Be' school, I would still be under probation. Heard about the 大风吹 there. Even the No. 1 deputy principal was forced to leave. This is probably one of the most turn-off schools.

NCO training camp

















NPCC Service Day



The Garung Guni Day!















2008年8月3日星期日

Environmental issues during the Hungry Ghost month

It's the Hungry Ghost Festival again.

It is not true that burning lotsa papers will benefit the dead, but it will truly cause lotsa health hazards to the living.

Hmmm... Come to think of it, why is it called the Hungry Ghost Festival??

在华中的368个日子

前言:前阵子迷上《溏心风暴》。‘没有常在心的第XX个日子’的效应还没褪去,于是以此为标题。


踏进这学府执教就必须从368天前开始说起。

那是2007年8月1日。晴。

华中的早晨升旗礼十分壮观。铜乐队就站在操场上,现场演奏国歌,全校师生就在旭日的照耀下开始了新的一天。

当时,我还是一头‘金噹噹’的前卫发型。走在校园里特是起眼。没多久后,就在这所本地数一数二的学府开始我新的工作生涯。

我深信,一个只有16岁的生活经验的学生,不会坏到哪里去。在过去教书的日子里,我都是执著着这份信念。毕竟,在学校里,孩子们还是受保护的。无论他们如何任性、固执、捣蛋、顽皮,老师依然会去原谅、教导。虽然很多次在受到极度刺激的情况下,我会采取极端的手段,可是,当冷静下来后,还是不会与十来岁的孩子计较。

很多时候,我会萌起去意,是因为对高层的失望、抑或是产生了危机意识。当我发现我没有在成长的时候,我会特别担忧!在华中的这368个日子里,我能说的是,我对校领导的信心依旧。对自己在紧张的工作中成长也是十分满足。【恐怕我有轻微的自虐倾向】

这过去的368个日子里是一个很好的教学过程(teach-learn journey)在老师传授知识与经验的同时,也在不断学习。

这里,我学会了imba, noob, gg-fied, SK warriors 等词汇。也是这里,我学会了如何在没有女学生的环境里运作。少了女生,这些血气方刚的小弟们,都会因为压抑不住一时的口快而闹出一些可列入经传的“警(惊)世之言”。

如:
1. 我把我的眼睛放在你脸上。[原意:我看着你忧伤的脸庞(?)]
2. 我认为,应该从小就开始性交。[原文:我认为应该从小开始性教育]

这些都是他们送我的欢乐与满足。

很快的,去年教过的学生很快的就会升到高中部去了。此刻,大家都在为自己的未来拼搏。这是一场毕生的工作。这份坚持必须继续下去,就像灰姑娘每到午夜12点,就必须乖乖地回到现实,继续sk。

在记忆还没褪色前,我希望能够通过照片、录像、日记等,把这些在368天里累积的回忆,记录下来并准备存档。因为,这是我与这一批即将离去的学生的共同回忆。

我不知道这个‘在华中的日子’的回忆会计算到哪一天。是1000天?是3680天?无论如何,今天看见了一代的新人即将上任。旧人很快就要去当他们的‘灰姑娘’,回到准备升学考的现实去。

祝福大家!